Told You I Was Going To Update

Alright, so in hind sight, that last entry was kind of depressing. It's what happens when you put someone like me, a fairly thought oriented person by themselves for days on end. All that happens is...I think. Then I need a place to put those thoughts somewhere. Unfortunately, the thoughts I had weren't, "Where is a good place to put these thoughts?" Of course, since that did not go through my head, they went onto the Internet.

I came up with a plan to better occupy my mind in the upcoming days/weeks/months. I'm thinking of starting to take pictures again. I want to try to challenge myself to take at least one creative shot a day starting in the next couple of days. I looked back at some of my New York pictures from last year, Kim, my theatre professor gave me a lot of compliments on my photography, and I feel it's a talent that I'm kind of wasting by just letting it sit on the wayside as I sit around in South Dakota. Let's be honest, it may not be the most exciting place to live, but it's an excellent place to take pictures. Tons of space to give you great angles and viewpoints. I'm not going to lie, just thinking about starting a project like this makes me fairly excited. It's not everyday you start a project like this.

To be honest, I'm going to end there, before I make a complete fool of myself, because if I don't make a fool, I will probably make an ass out of myself...Pardon my French.

But hopefully next time, I'll have my first shot to start off my new goal. Until next time, go out and have experiences and things you pick up along the way.

Jon H.

Revelations (It might be the wrong spelling but who are you to judge?)

So while I was sitting bored at my place of work, I had an epiphany. I need to update my blog more, maybe once every couple days, if I can get to it. I feel like this is could be the closest thing to sanity that I can find right now. Everything is so crazy for me.

There was a time, way back in the day (I feel so old putting that down, I know I'm not, but doesn't change the fact that I feel old), when I would just sit around for a full Sunday, not even getting dressed. I was just lazy and sat around at home all day. I honestly have not had a day like that since my father passed away. The downside of losing a parent, sometimes you have to grow up. When you grow up, you can't dance around your living room in your underwear. Those celebrities in the Guitar Hero commercials have it easy.

But I digress...I hate to say it, but there are days where I literally feel my sanity slipping away from me...At least I think it's my sanity, it might just be my attention span. Who really knows anymore? The major thing occupying my mind right now is the future, well that and finishing my run of watching the Office. Halfway through season 5 right now, I'm feeling pretty good about myself.

But once again, digressing from the topic at hand, the future, I feel so much of my future is already mapped out, but at the same time, there is so much left up to chance. It's both an unsettling feeling and a sigh of relief. I mean, I have positive plans, times, and dates for a lot of stuff. I mean, April 17th: I have two choir performances, one in Centerville, the other here in Sioux Falls, I have the specific times for both, but not currently with me. I'm going to Europe for a choir tour this next January. I have a full agenda, almost completely planned out, down to days, and potentially hours. That should make someone like me feel good, I mean, I feel the wheel that is controlling my path has gone into someone else's hand recently, and just having that little sense of direction gives me a couple of fingers, if not hands back on that wheel.

At the same time though, this organization isn't my doing, so is it really me trying to grab that wheel back? For all I know, it's just more outsiders trying to take over control of my wheel.

To be honest, I'm learning to hate singing. I hate to say it, but I am. Once again, when I was younger, I did it all the time. Usually in the car, just to make a drive more fun, now I do it to keep my scholarship. All I associate with my singing is anger, every week I get yelled at in my lessons for not having the drive to practice. I mean, what's the point in practicing if all I'm going to be told is that I'm not working hard enough to satisfy some old man's overzealous expectations for me? I think I'm just going to take guitar/piano lessons next year. Keep the scholarship, but stop worrying about remembering words, or notes for a recital...It'll be a nice change of pace.

Then there's the whole job thing, it's a great job, easy way to make money, but I don't like how much time it takes up. I just sit there wishing for it to be over, with it always pursuing to eat up every second I have. Every second where i could be productive, or could be social, and instead I am working at a small store that no one really knows exists in a corner of the mall that honestly no one really cares about.

But I feel like that is enough venting for today, hopefully I will be back in a couple of days to vent some more about my experiences and the things I picked up along the way...

It has been too long Internet, far too long.

As the title says, it has been too long. You last heard of where I had just worked the over the Fourth of July. It is now March of the year of 2011, yes, it is a new year. If this is news to you, then you really need to get out more. Now I am working at a new location of RadioShack, the mall location here in Sioux Falls. I have been in a couple of shows, Broadway and Beyond, I sang the song "It Sucks To Be Me" from Avenue Q. A show that I have recently seen at the Washington Pavilion. Which it is amazing, if you get a chance to see it, go. But I digress, I was also in the show "All My Sons" by Arthur Miller. I played the part of Frank Lubey, a great part. I felt I grew a great deal as an actor with this show. The show did cause a great deal of stress, which did cause me to have a slight mental breakdown. Don't worry, Internet, I am fine, I worked a little too hard, and put way too much on my plate. I took a week off from school, and got back to good. Things all around are good. Unfortunately, I have not been home since Thanksgiving Break. You know what happens when you take a step into the adult world. I don't like being away from my family for so long, but you know, it happens. But hey, Spring Break starts tomorrow, that'll be good for me.