We're moving?...Again?

So this isn't a story about me randomly having to switch the place where I sleep at all. I just want to inform this blog that I am moving my focus to a new blog. And by moving I mean, I will more than likely never look at this one ever again, but don't worry Internet, I am going to link my new blog to you now.
http://jonjhardcastle.tumblr.com/
Yes, it is a tumblr, so if you have one yourself and decide to follow me, I will do a quick disclaimer here.
1. I will reblog a lot of things that pertain to my interests, which rarely pertain to many interests of people I know.
2. I will try my best to do actual updates on it, but no promises. (See earlier blog posts here for proof)
3. There is a high chance of seeing swears on it, so do not check it if you do not like that.

There it is blogspot, it's been totally awesome.

It's been around a year? Really? Stop messing around blog

I looked at my blog and saw that my last post was around a year ago, and I apologize for that. Remember when I used to say that I'd try to update on a weekly basis?
Anyway, I'm sorry, but to do a quick recap:
1. Did Sweeney Todd, was tons of fun. Miss doing that show all the time.
2. Went to LA instead of NYC, don't regret anything. Had the experience of a lifetime.
3. Left LA, live at home now, work at local DQ.
4. Got accepted into SDSU as a transfer student, and am crazy excited for that new adventure.
5. Became crazy addicted to everything that is British Television
There is the short list of big things that happened to me over the past year...a bit short, I know.

Now onto the problem at hand, letting go.
Recently I have found myself in the middle of a slight problem, and that is letting go of my past. It's been almost a year since I claimed myself as a citizen of the city of Sioux Falls. Yet, I haven't been able to shrug off the urge to claim to be a citizen of Sioux Falls, which is really weird. I have returned to Sioux Falls, and I don't feel like I belong there anymore, but there is still this part of me that wants to be that kid living in Sioux Falls again.
Honestly there's nothing really keeping me there, I only talk to a handful of people that I used to hang around. Blog, between you, me, and all of the Internet, a huge part of me hates going back. I mean in the last 4 months I lived there, I had never felt more betrayed than the 2 1/2 years prior I had lived there. I mean I found out people were using me, had lied to my face, tried turning me against some of my better friends, just to name a few. Still I yearn to return to numerous horrible people that have betrayed me in some way shape or form to see the small handful who would never dream of doing such a thing. Why? Because of a fear of letting go.
Throughout my life I had to say goodbye to great people because of out of nowhere acts of God. Since those moments are out of my control, I have no choice but to let go of the advancement of those people in my life. Then there's stuff like this, where I still feel the urge to see some people who mean the world to me, and I have no choice within my being to say goodbye to those who have no significance at all in my eyes. #whitepeopleproblems #firstworldproblems #usingtwitterhashtagsinablogentryproblems
The one upside to this all, is I will always have this blog. I may be passive aggressively (I think?) talking in the general direction of some people through a blog post, but at least you won't judge me blog. If you did, I would have a serious issue, and would have to get a hold of  Christian Bale to put you down. *Terminator: Salvation reference* Nailed it! I suppose, I b*tched (Shut yo' mouth!) in your general direction for long  enough. Until next time, (which will hopefully be earlier than a year from now) may you remain out of the horrifying gaze of Moffat, and Allons-y!

Just a quick update from my last one

I just wanted to inform my readers that I did make it to the audition of Sweeney Todd, and I made it! I am now an ensemble cast member for the Sioux Empire Community Theatre's production of Sweeney Todd. Not going to lie, I'm really excited, unfortunately there aren't a lot of people my age in the show. For the most part, it's either they have kids, or they are in high school, so hopefully I'll make some friends...that was one of the most depressing things I have put up on this blog. But all around, cool people, I can tell you now that this show is going to be sick. I was told tickets are already available, so start thinking about if you want to see the show. May is right around the corner people.

Remember when I said I was going to update on a fairly regular basis?

So, I didn't keep up with my blogging on a regular basis, but I've been in a great need to put my organized, hopefully not too depressing thoughts somewhere.

So it has been almost a year since I updated my whereabouts, so I do have some information to give to my readers:

1. I now live in a studio apartment in Sioux Falls, it's a pretty nice set-up, I really like the place.

2. I was planning on transferring schools this last fall, and was convinced not to, which caused item #1, I moved to an apartment to save money.

3. I no longer go to school at USF. I made an executive and financial decision that it would be best for me to no longer attend USF. Judge me as you will Internet, but it happened, and I'm happy about the decision I made.

4. I plan on moving to New York City this upcoming September, it is a very exciting and scary thought for me. I look forward to the future blog posts of my adventures there. If this is news to you, surprise!

So that is the big news I had in the around 10 months leading up to this blog post.

Now for the fresh stuff.

I will hopefully be able to audition for Sweeney Todd for Sioux Empire Community Theatre tomorrow, super excited for that, hope to get a good part.

This week I would say, has been an all-around eye-opening experience to say the least. It has been good and bad for me. I luckily got the chance to think things through, and am walking away from this week stronger...I think, only time will tell. There are many in my life that would wish me to go deeper, but for the sake of me and those around me, I will leave it as is.

That's it for now, I will hopefully have an update within a reasonable amount of time.

This is Jon Hardcastle signing off.

Told You I Was Going To Update

Alright, so in hind sight, that last entry was kind of depressing. It's what happens when you put someone like me, a fairly thought oriented person by themselves for days on end. All that happens is...I think. Then I need a place to put those thoughts somewhere. Unfortunately, the thoughts I had weren't, "Where is a good place to put these thoughts?" Of course, since that did not go through my head, they went onto the Internet.

I came up with a plan to better occupy my mind in the upcoming days/weeks/months. I'm thinking of starting to take pictures again. I want to try to challenge myself to take at least one creative shot a day starting in the next couple of days. I looked back at some of my New York pictures from last year, Kim, my theatre professor gave me a lot of compliments on my photography, and I feel it's a talent that I'm kind of wasting by just letting it sit on the wayside as I sit around in South Dakota. Let's be honest, it may not be the most exciting place to live, but it's an excellent place to take pictures. Tons of space to give you great angles and viewpoints. I'm not going to lie, just thinking about starting a project like this makes me fairly excited. It's not everyday you start a project like this.

To be honest, I'm going to end there, before I make a complete fool of myself, because if I don't make a fool, I will probably make an ass out of myself...Pardon my French.

But hopefully next time, I'll have my first shot to start off my new goal. Until next time, go out and have experiences and things you pick up along the way.

Jon H.

Revelations (It might be the wrong spelling but who are you to judge?)

So while I was sitting bored at my place of work, I had an epiphany. I need to update my blog more, maybe once every couple days, if I can get to it. I feel like this is could be the closest thing to sanity that I can find right now. Everything is so crazy for me.

There was a time, way back in the day (I feel so old putting that down, I know I'm not, but doesn't change the fact that I feel old), when I would just sit around for a full Sunday, not even getting dressed. I was just lazy and sat around at home all day. I honestly have not had a day like that since my father passed away. The downside of losing a parent, sometimes you have to grow up. When you grow up, you can't dance around your living room in your underwear. Those celebrities in the Guitar Hero commercials have it easy.

But I digress...I hate to say it, but there are days where I literally feel my sanity slipping away from me...At least I think it's my sanity, it might just be my attention span. Who really knows anymore? The major thing occupying my mind right now is the future, well that and finishing my run of watching the Office. Halfway through season 5 right now, I'm feeling pretty good about myself.

But once again, digressing from the topic at hand, the future, I feel so much of my future is already mapped out, but at the same time, there is so much left up to chance. It's both an unsettling feeling and a sigh of relief. I mean, I have positive plans, times, and dates for a lot of stuff. I mean, April 17th: I have two choir performances, one in Centerville, the other here in Sioux Falls, I have the specific times for both, but not currently with me. I'm going to Europe for a choir tour this next January. I have a full agenda, almost completely planned out, down to days, and potentially hours. That should make someone like me feel good, I mean, I feel the wheel that is controlling my path has gone into someone else's hand recently, and just having that little sense of direction gives me a couple of fingers, if not hands back on that wheel.

At the same time though, this organization isn't my doing, so is it really me trying to grab that wheel back? For all I know, it's just more outsiders trying to take over control of my wheel.

To be honest, I'm learning to hate singing. I hate to say it, but I am. Once again, when I was younger, I did it all the time. Usually in the car, just to make a drive more fun, now I do it to keep my scholarship. All I associate with my singing is anger, every week I get yelled at in my lessons for not having the drive to practice. I mean, what's the point in practicing if all I'm going to be told is that I'm not working hard enough to satisfy some old man's overzealous expectations for me? I think I'm just going to take guitar/piano lessons next year. Keep the scholarship, but stop worrying about remembering words, or notes for a recital...It'll be a nice change of pace.

Then there's the whole job thing, it's a great job, easy way to make money, but I don't like how much time it takes up. I just sit there wishing for it to be over, with it always pursuing to eat up every second I have. Every second where i could be productive, or could be social, and instead I am working at a small store that no one really knows exists in a corner of the mall that honestly no one really cares about.

But I feel like that is enough venting for today, hopefully I will be back in a couple of days to vent some more about my experiences and the things I picked up along the way...

It has been too long Internet, far too long.

As the title says, it has been too long. You last heard of where I had just worked the over the Fourth of July. It is now March of the year of 2011, yes, it is a new year. If this is news to you, then you really need to get out more. Now I am working at a new location of RadioShack, the mall location here in Sioux Falls. I have been in a couple of shows, Broadway and Beyond, I sang the song "It Sucks To Be Me" from Avenue Q. A show that I have recently seen at the Washington Pavilion. Which it is amazing, if you get a chance to see it, go. But I digress, I was also in the show "All My Sons" by Arthur Miller. I played the part of Frank Lubey, a great part. I felt I grew a great deal as an actor with this show. The show did cause a great deal of stress, which did cause me to have a slight mental breakdown. Don't worry, Internet, I am fine, I worked a little too hard, and put way too much on my plate. I took a week off from school, and got back to good. Things all around are good. Unfortunately, I have not been home since Thanksgiving Break. You know what happens when you take a step into the adult world. I don't like being away from my family for so long, but you know, it happens. But hey, Spring Break starts tomorrow, that'll be good for me.